Joyful meditative trip hop·80 BPM·Am·ACIM: choose again·3:38
"From fear back to love, I choose again."
Track one. The album opens where most days open: with a knot in the chest, replaying something somebody said, building little walls to feel like strength. The song is the Course practice of choosing again. You notice the fear voice, you slow your breathing, and you discover there is a softer voice that has been there the whole time saying you can choose this time.
The ACIM connection is the core one. A Course in Miracles teaches that every moment offers the same choice: fear or love. Not a one-time decision but a thousand small ones across a day. The chorus is that decision said out loud. "I remember what I really am."
Production is 84 BPM half-time trip hop with a smile in the pocket. Am verses opening into a wide F major chorus that stays in major. Warm dusty kick with subtle stutter on the worry-spin verses, brushed snare with vinyl crackle, tape-worn Rhodes on 9ths and 11ths. The kind voice winning under the loud one is the whole point.
From fear back to love From fear back to love ... Woke up with a weight in my chest Replay every word that you said Building little walls to feel like strength But the light can't reach when the door's locked wrong I see your eyes still hiding the pain I hear my own voice place the blame But under all the noise and the fight There's a heart that only wants the light So I slow my breathing down Let the anger leave my hands There's a softer voice inside Saying I can choose this time (clear) From fear back to love, I choose again From blame back to trust, I let you in Every time the fear comes back I remember what I really am From fear back to love, I'm here right now Talking to myself like an enemy Counting every fault as a tragedy Carrying a weight that was never mine Like a name that I don't need to sign Then a quiet echo in my mind Says you were never broken, never gone I let the guilt dissolve in the light And I feel my heart come back to life (I am safe somehow) So I slow my breathing down Let the shame slip from my chest There's a softer voice inside Saying I can choose this time From fear back to love, I choose again From blame back to trust, I let you in Every time the fear comes back I remember what I really am From fear back to love, I'm here right now ... In this moment I release the story... Let the past fall out of frame Nothing true can ever leave me I remember what is always true From fear back to love, I choose again From blame back to trust, I let you in Every time the fear comes back I remember what I really am From fear back to love, I'm here right now From fear back to love From fear back to love
Before I Was Anyone by Brian 200. Frequency & Solidarity.