Surrendered trip hop, near-acapella·82 BPM·Dm·ACIM: surrender·4:59
"I don't know the way to healing. I don't have to understand."
The Course recommends a kind of prayer that is not asking for outcomes. It is bringing what you cannot fix to an altar inside yourself and letting it be transformed without your micromanagement. The song is that prayer said honestly: "I don't know the way to healing. I don't have to understand. I can bring it to the center and release it from my hands."
ACIM connection. The Course's altar is interior. You don't have to know what to do with the hurt. You don't have to forgive the right way, on the right schedule, with the right feeling. You just have to be willing to lay it down. The song's chorus is that willingness made melodic.
Near-acapella throughout. Moody close-mic male baritone, warm tone, dark chest, intimate proximity, slight tape wear, almost spoken-sung. One sustained Rhodes chord per verse on Dadd9. Dub sub-bass on D as floor only. No drum kit. Clutching chops in the verses versus empty chorus is the friction.
Lay it on the altar Let the fire make it new ... I've been clutching all my problems like a bundle on my chest Hammering at the puzzle, never stopping to rest Every fear about tomorrow, every bruise from days gone by I've been carrying alone as if I have to be the sky But there's a quiet inner temple where the burden isn't mine Where a deeper love is waiting for the things I try to hide If I'm willing to surrender what I cannot really fix I can place it on an altar made of peace instead of bricks I don't know the way to healing I don't have to understand I can bring it to the center And release it from my hands (clear) Lay it on the altar of your heart Every fear, every tear, every part you held back Let the gentle fire of love undo What you never had to carry through Lay it on the altar, let it rise Up in smoke to clearer skies You don't have to hold this anymore Lay it on the altar of the love within your core I've been praying with my worry, telling heaven how to act Trying to control the outcome, bargaining with simple facts But the temple isn't outside, it's the stillness in my soul Where I bring my heavy stories to the place that knows me whole When I lay down all my judgments, when I stop the tired defense I can feel a holy presence lifting what never made sense I don't need to fix the picture, I can let the light come through Every problem that I offer is a space for something new I don't know the way to healing I don't have to understand I can bring it to the center And release it from my hands Lay it on the altar of your heart Every fear, every tear, every part you held back Let the gentle fire of love undo What you never had to carry through Lay it on the altar, let it rise Up in smoke to clearer skies You don't have to hold this anymore Lay it on the altar of the love within your core ... Every grievance you hold close... Every lonely midnight ache Place it in the quiet silence Let the inner fire take You are not the one who fixes Not the one who saves Only the one who opens To the love that always stays Lay it on the altar of your heart Every fear, every tear, every part you held back Let the gentle fire of love undo What you never had to carry through Lay it on the altar, let it rise Up in smoke to clearer skies You don't have to hold this anymore Lay it on the altar of the love within your core Lay it on the altar Let the fire make it new
Before I Was Anyone by Brian 200. Frequency & Solidarity.